"Goblin Boy"
by Rick Hautala
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It had been quite a night already, and Jimmy Foster was smiling inside
his Halloween mask as he placed his plastic Trick-or-Treat bag onto the
kitchen table. When he upended it, a cascade of candy, assorted fruits,
and—as usual—a toothbrush and a small tube of Crest
toothpaste from his dentist, Doc Collette, spilled out across the
red-and-white-checkered oilcloth tablecloth.
"Wow! Looks like you got quite the haul there, Jimbo," his
mother said. She smiled as she leaned back against the sink, her meaty
arms folded across her chest. "Go on upstairs 'n put your p.j.s on.
Then we'll sort through everything, 'kay?"
Jimmy nodded his agreement, but he didn't move.
"'N take off that mask ... It gives me the creeps."
But Jimmy didn't remove his "goblin" mask with its lumpy warts
and deep wrinkles. He stood there, admiring his pile of treats. He was
glad to see a fair amount of Milky Ways and Three Musketeers—his
favorites—mixed in amongst the Charlestown Chews, Oh Henrys, and
Good 'n Plentys. The real Halloween trick this year—like every
year—was going to be keeping Ben, his older brother, away from his
candy. His father's sweet tooth seemed to get worse every year around
this time, too.
"You didn't have any trouble with the older boys, did you?"
"Nope," Jimmy said. When he shook his head, the rubber edge of
his mask scraped against the bare skin of his neck. "We never even
went downtown. All we did was circle around the block."
"Good. You didn't use the shortcut through the woods, I hope."
"No way. I never use the shortcut after dark ... I hardly even use
it during the day."
"Good thing, too," his mother said.
Jimmy couldn't help but shiver inwardly whenever he thought about the
well-trod path that wound through the woods. He usually only took it
when he was with one or, better yet, several of his friends. The
neighborhood kids scared each other—and themselves—with
stories about a troll or some kind of nasty creature who lived under the
wooden bridge that crossed the stream deep in the woods and would eat
you if it caught you out there alone.
"So the Hopkins twins didn't bother you or your friends?"
"Nope," Jimmy said. "Never even saw 'em."
He couldn't help but be surprised by the odd tone in his voice. It was
muffled inside his mask and had an odd, echoing resonance that he hadn't
noticed when he was trick-or-treating with his friends.
"Well, go upstairs 'n put on your p.j.s before you even
think about having any candy tonight."
"'Kay," Jimmy said as he reached up with both hands to take
off his mask. His fingers hooked the wrinkled green rubber below the
eyeholes, but when he tightened his grip and lifted up, a sharp, sudden
pain pulled at both of his cheeks. He let out a tiny yelp that drew his
mother's attention.
"Something the matter?"
Jimmy looked down at his hands, suddenly feeling an odd distance from
them. They looked far away ... like they belonged to someone else, and
he was seeing them through the wrong end of a telescope. When he flexed
his fingers, he had the disquieting sense that he wasn't actually
controlling them. Someone else was.
"No ... uhh ... nothing," he said, but the peculiar hollowness
in his voice sounded even more intense. A wild shiver swept up his back
like a chilly breeze on an October night.
His hands started to tingle with pins-'n'-needles as he raised them and,
thrusting his head forward, slid them under the edge of his chin. When
he tried again to lift up the edge of the mask, the stinging, tugging
sensation got worse. It was like pulling a Band-Aid off an old wound and
taking most of the scab with it. He let out another louder yelp as
tears welled up in his eyes.
"Honey? ... What's wrong?"
"I can't get my ... my mask's stuck."
He had to fight back waves of panic even as the strangled, hollow sound
of his own voice frightened him all the more. It reminded him more of a
growling dog than a person. Trembling inside, he looked at his mother,
positive he could see confusion and maybe even a hint of fear reflected
in her wide-eyed expression.
"Come here ... Lemme help you with it," she said, walking over
to him and kneeling down on one knee so she was on eye-level with him.
Framed by the black eyeholes of the mask, her face loomed frighteningly
close. The harsh brilliance of the kitchen's overhead light made the
careworn lines in her face and the tiny red capillaries that twined like
red threads across her nose stand out in frightening, cartoonish detail.
Her blue eyes glistened like wet marbles as she reached out to take hold
of the mask. The veins and tendons in her hands cast shadows like dark
pencil smudges on her pale skin.
Jimmy couldn't stop feeling strangely detached from himself as he
watched her hands move toward his face in weird, flickering slow motion.
When she touched the mask, he didn't want to believe he could actually
feel
her touch on the mask, but it felt like she was running her hands across
the bare surface of his face.
"Hmm," his mother said, frowning as she slipped her fingers
under the edge of the mask to get a good grip and started tugging it
back and forth. "It's on kinda tight."
When that didn't work, she slid her hands around the back of his neck
and tried to lift up the back edge, but the burning slice of pain that
shot up his scalp made him yelp again. He jerked away from her
violently, throwing her off balance.
"It's really stuck," he said, trying—and
failing—to keep the rising panic out of his voice. Tears sprang
from his eyes. The air inside the mask got suddenly too hot to breathe.
He tried to suppress the sudden conviction that he was suffocating.
Whatever his mother had done, the mask felt even tighter now. Then he
noticed something else that even through his panic struck him as rather
odd. He was crying, but as impossible as it was, he could actually
feel his tears, hot and scalding, sliding down the outside of
his mask.
His mother reached out again and took hold of the mask on either side
below the ears. Her eyes narrowed as she lifted it up, but now it felt
like she was actually ripping the skin away from his face. The pain was
like nothing Jimmy had even experienced before.
"What did you do, get some gum or somethin' stuck inside
there?" she asked, her frown deepening.
"No ... No," Jimmy said, shaking his head wildly from side to
side. He kept telling himself not to panic, but the fear of being
trapped inside this mask was getting steadily stronger. He knew he had
to calm down so he and his mother could figure out what to do next.
She'd take care of him like she always did, wouldn't she? Or was he
going to have to go to the doctor's ... or maybe have the police come to
the house and cut the mask off?
The kitchen door suddenly flew open, and Jimmy's brother, Ben, entered.
He was wearing a half-hearted attempt at a hobo costume, something so he
and his friends could justify trick-or-treating even though they were in
high school. Ben was carrying an old pillowcase that sagged heavily with
treats. He was smiling as he hefted it up onto the kitchen table.
"That's all you got, wimp?" he said, sneering as he looked at
Jimmy's stash. "Heck, I ate that much on the way home."
"'N don't come crying to me tonight when you've got a stomach ache,
either," his mother said.
Jimmy wanted to say something, too. He wanted to tell his brother that
he was more than satisfied with what he'd gotten, that he wasn't a
greedy pig like Ben, but he was too frightened to speak.
"We—uh, we're having a bit of trouble with his mask,"
his mother said, but Ben seemed not to care. As if he hadn't even heard
her, he said, "I gotta take a wiz," and tromped down the
hallway to the bathroom, slamming the door shut behind him and locking
it.
"Aw'right, now," Jimmy's mother said, settling on her knees in
front of him. She pulled Jimmy closer and, leaning forward, carefully
inspected the mask all around. Jimmy watched her, frighteningly aware of
the rubber eyeholes he was looking out of. "You got it on, so it's
gotta come off, right?"
"Right," Jimmy said without much conviction. He couldn't stop
thinking how distorted and strange his voice sounded.
This time when she grabbed the bottom of the mask again and started to
lift it, his face felt like it was on fire. He let out a shrill scream
that set his mother back on her heels. She looked at him, pale and
trembling, as she slowly shook her head from side to side.
"Did you, like, Super Glue it on or something?" she asked.
"No ... Nothing like that. Honest," Jimmy said.
Seeing her through the eyeholes of the mask was like looking at her from
the end of a long, dark tunnel. And as he stared at her, another
thought—an impulse, really—took hold of him. He had no idea
where it came from, and it nauseated him, but there it was. He had to
fight back a sudden urge to lunge at his mother and bite her. He
couldn't stop staring at the white, flabby flesh of her arms that was
hanging out from her short-sleeved blouse, and all he could think about
was sinking his teeth into that mass of warm, blood-filled flesh.
The thought terrified him, and he tried to look away from her; but she
reached out, grabbed him by the upper arms, and held him tightly.
"Don't you go anywhere, mister," she said. "I'm gonna get
the scissors." Her voice had an echo-chamber effect that made it
difficult for him to understand what she said, but he was too scared to
move.
His mother went to the kitchen cabinets and slid open the top drawer.
Jimmy watched, fascinated by how, when she moved, she left a blurred
streak of light behind her like a jet's contrail.
From a long way away, he heard the sound of rushing water. It took him
what seemed like forever to realize that his brother had flushed the
toilet. Jimmy looked past the kitchen table and down the hallway as his
brother exited the bathroom. He moved with the same strange, sludgy slow
motion his mother did. By this point, Jimmy's pulse was thumping wildly
in his ears, sounding like someone using a jackhammer on a tin roof. He
winced with every step his brother took as he ran upstairs and then
slammed his bedroom door shut.
"Ahh ... Here we are ..." his mother said, her voice coming
from far away.
A bolt of terror as clean and sharp as a fork of lightning shot through
him when he saw the pair of scissors in her hand. She gripped the handle
so tightly the knobs of her knuckles went white as she started toward
him. The cutting edges of the scissors telescoped in his vision until
they looked like polished steel blades six or more inches long.
Jimmy was filled with the sudden irrational fear that his mother was
going to kill him right then and there. He wanted to back away from her,
but it was like he was standing ankle-deep in thick, heavy mud. He was
convinced he was going to die, that his mother was going to slice him
open there on the kitchen floor and let him bleed to death, but he
couldn't move. He narrowed his eyes and winced, feeling the rubber mask
mold to his expression as he prepared for the sudden jab of pain. He
prayed that it would all be over quickly.
"Here, now ... Lemme see," his mother said. She spoke mildly
enough, but her voice sounded like a tape recording played at so slow a
speed every word dragged out for what seemed like several seconds.
It took some effort, but his mother wedged her fingers under the edge of
the mask and brought the scissors around to position them for a quick
snip. Jimmy cringed, anticipating the pain. When the cold metal touched
the mask, it was as if the blades were pressing against his own skin.
His mother shifted from side to side, positioning herself carefully as
she pulled out the edge of the mask as far as she could and then
snipped.
Jimmy let out a piercing cry that even Old Lady Harding, the old woman
who lived next door and was hard of hearing, must have heard.
"You guys all right down there?" Ben hollered from upstairs.
"We're fine," his mother yelled back, but all Jimmy could
think was that he was definitely not fine. That single clip had
felt like a cold razor slicing across his throat, and now
blood—his blood!—was seeping from the edge of the mask and
trickling down his neck.
"What the Dickens?" his mother said as she leaned forward and
inspected what she had done. Blood smeared the blades of the scissors.
"Did I nick you?"
Jimmy was too frightened to speak. His throat had gone bone dry. The
pain radiating from the cut spread a chilly numbness across his face and
down his chest. The thin trickle of blood was searing hot against his
flesh. He found it almost impossible to take a breath. It was as though
huge, unseen arms had wrapped around his chest and were squeezing the
life out of him.
"Oh, my God! You're bleeding," his mother said. Her voice was
so low and dragging he could barely understand her. "Lemme get
something to clean you up. God, I'm so sorry."
His mother let go of his arms and stood up, moving toward the counter to
get a paper towel. When she turned on the tap, the sound of running
water hissed like a nest of snakes inside his head.
"How the Devil did you get that damned thing on so tight?" she
asked as she knelt down again and dabbed at his neck.
Jimmy watched her the whole time, frightened by the look of concern that
spread across his mother's face. Frowning, she leaned close to him and
inspected the wound, but Jimmy already knew what the problem was.
It wasn't his neck that was bleeding.
It was the mask.
Worse than that, the mask was now a part of him. His mother had cut the
mask as if it was his own flesh. After a long moment, she leaned back
and looked at him with an expression of confusion on her face.
"Are you playing a joke on me here?" she asked.
Her voice was still horribly distorted, but he could make out what she
was saying. He wanted to lash out at her and sink his teeth into her
throat for what she had done to him, but he checked himself. Raising
both hands to his goblin face, he ran his fingertips over the dark,
wrinkled surface. It felt absolutely no different from when he touched
his real face ... or what used to be his real face.
"No," he said, hearing the chest-deep growl rumbling in his
voice.
His mother heard it, too, and she pulled away from him with genuine
shock and terror on her face.
"Jimmy? ... Are you all right?"
Jimmy was desperate to answer her, to reassure her, but he was afraid of
what would come out of his mouth if he opened it. He wished he could
tell his mother he was just fine, but he couldn't. He wasn't sure how or
why this was happening to him. It didn't seem real, but it definitely
was
not in his imagination.
Maybe he shouldn't have lied to his mother earlier, he thought.
Maybe he should have confessed that he hadn't avoided the shortcut
through the woods tonight like he'd told her.
But even if he did admit that, one thing he could never tell her or
anyone was what he had done to the Hopkins twins when he met up with
them on the narrow wooden bridge in the woods. Jimmy might be one of the
"little kids" in the neighborhood who was always getting
threatened and beaten up by the Hopkins twins, but tonight he had caught
them unawares as they were crossing the bridge on their way downtown to
go trick-or-treating. When Jimmy leaped out from underneath the bridge
wearing his goblin mask, one of them—he had no idea which
one—had run off, screaming like a little girl.
That part had been hysterical.
But Jimmy couldn't remember exactly what happened next. It was all a
blur, but somehow, the other twin ended up with a carving knife sticking
out of his back from between his shoulder blades. He only got about
twenty feet away from the bridge before he fell down, sprawling
face-down on the path, his head cocked to one side. After twitching a
little and making a weird bubbling sound in his throat, he stopped
moving altogether.
Jimmy hadn't been with any of his friends like he told his mother. He
knew he had been alone out there in the woods by the bridge, but he
didn't remember having a knife. He had no idea where that came from.
But maybe what was happening now with the mask was the price he had to
pay for lying to his mother and for what he must have done to one of the
Hopkins twins tonight.
He was only ten years old, but he now realized that maybe his years of
living in a home with a loving mother and father were over. Even though
his big brother was a royal pain in the butt most of the
time—well, all of the time, actually—he generally
liked it here at home. He didn't want to lose what he had.
But now, he feared, he would have to go back into the woods and start
living under the bridge because—who knew?
Maybe some night the other Hopkins twin would be foolish enough to go
out there again ... or maybe someone else ... maybe his older brother
would be foolish enough to take the shortcut through the woods after
dark. Then he would get to do to him what he had always imagined.
Jimmy made a terrible snarling sound as he backed away from his mother.
He said to her, "I'm sorry, Mama," but he could tell by the
horrified expression on her face that she didn't have the faintest clue
what he had said. Truth to tell, even to his own ears his voice had
sounded more like the angry snarl of a rabid dog than a human being.
He was staring at his mother, confused and frightened as he tried to
understand the sudden change he had experienced. Once again, he was
filled with a powerful compulsion to latch onto his mother's neck and
sink his teeth into her warm flesh.
But he didn't do that.
He couldn't.
Not to his own mother.
Instead, he turned and, howling like a coyote in the light of the full
moon, burst out of the house. The door slammed shut behind him, sounding
like a gunshot. He ran across the front yard and down the street until,
breathless, he came to the turnoff onto the shortcut. Then he plunged
into the woods and made his way through the darkness along the shortcut
until he came to the wooden bridge. Once he got there, he decided to
hide under the bridge and sit there in the deepest shadows, listening to
the gurgle of running water and the songs of the night birds, and
waiting ... waiting to see what happened next.
Copyright © 2010 by Rick Hautala. All rights reserved.
Reprinted with permission of the author.
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